Love and Healing

So, I've been struggling lately with feelings of inadequacy, specifically about my ability to please God. I also had been struggling seeing myself worth Nathan (my missionary)'s love. Even after President Uchtdorf's WONDERFUL Relief Society Talk and his General Conference Talk, I was struggling to see my goodness. I'm usually able to see the goodness of those around me, but I didn't have a knowledge and testimony of my personal worth, my ability to please my Father in Heaven, nor my worth of love. 


I have had a really hard time with it for a while now, but recently I reached an all time low, so I determined I would make a time to meet with my Bishop for comfort. He shared a number of really good scriptures with me (Alma 36:20, Hebrews 11:5 and D&C 117:13) as well as a talk given by Elder Holland while he was president of BYU: Of Souls, Symbols and Sacraments. It was wonderful to be edified by the spirit, and I know that bishops truly are called to lead their wards. I have been edified time and time again by the various bishops of the wards I've lived.
Elder Holland has a special opportunity to talk about families and love. He's included some aspect of the two in a number of his talks, and my friend, Elizabeth shared a MormonMessage with me that I really needed tonight: How Do I Love Thee? Elder Holland has shared HOW to love. How to truly love. It was wonderful to be reminded how my Savior loves me, and that all encompassing and enduring love is how I should love others.


I'm grateful for the wonderful friends, family members and Church leaders who have supported me so much throughout my life. I cannot say enough how wonderful it is to have the knowledge that the "most powerful Being in the universe is the Father of [my] spirit. He knows [me]. He loves [me] with a perfect love." I have been blessed SO much that it's hard to believe that I was selfish enough to think that God wasn't pleased with me. 


I want to thank Bishop Harding for his guidance, and I want to thank anyone and everyone who has had an influence in my life. You each have truly touched me, and I wish I could individually thank each and everyone of you, but seeing as it's late, and I need sleep, I will head to bed.